About: Kevin/Justin, Tommy/Kitty, Kevin/Scotty/Justin
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything
Extra: This an AU (Alternative Universe) story, so remember : The more things change, the more they stay the same. Here are part 01, part 02, part 03, part 04, part 05, part 06, part 07, part 08, part 09, part 10, part 11, part 12, part 13, part 14, part 15, part 16, part 17, part 18, part 19, part 20, part 21, part 22, part 23, part 24, part 25, part 26, part 27, part 28, part 29 and part 30
Justin crawls deeper under the blankets, but he peeks at his window from underneath it. He is a big boy, his dad says and big boys don’t run to their mommies whenever there is a bit of thunder. A flash of lightning illuminates the room so strongly that Justin can still see the shape of his room once the darkness returns.
A crashing noise makes the house tremble and Justin screams. He climbs out of bed and runs to his mom and dad’s bedroom, but there, in front of their door, he knows he cannot go in. His father forbade him to do so again, slightly fed up with the nightly visits of his 8-year old son.
He looks around. Another flash of lights shows him the doors to chose from. Sarah no longer lives here, Kitty is gone to school. Tommy .... Tommy already sees him as a loser... Kevin? He isn’t sure. Kevin is different. Sarah and Kitty always want to mother over him, Tommy hates him,... but Kevin? He never really knows what Kevin thinks.
He opens the door to Kevin’s room and sees Kevin is asleep.
“Kevin?” His voice is little and can barely be heard over the sound of thunderstorm outside, yet, Kevin opens his eyes almost instantly, is if he KNEW Justin was there.
“I’m scared... Can I ... Can I sleep with you?”
“Sure. But if you snore, I’ll kick you out.” Kevin smiles, pushing away the blanket. Justin rolls into Kevin’s bed. Another crashing thunder startles him. The room is immediately lit up again and another wave of noise follows. Justin screams in terror.
“Come here.” He hears Kevin’s soothing voice. And Justin crawls into Kevin’s arms, pressing himself up against that warm body that feels both strange and familiar at the same time. He makes himself as small as possible as he lies close to Kevin’s chest, where he can feel and hear Kevin’s heartbeat. It’s so calming, that soon enough, he’s asleep.
He can feel someone tug at his arm.
“Hey, Justin! Wake up.” Justin opens his eyes and blinks against the bright early sunlight in Kevin’s room. “It’s nearly six o’clock in the morning. You have to go to your own bed, before dad finds out you’ve been sleeping here.
You wouldn’t want him to think you’re not a big boy, now, do you?” Justin shakes his head. “Good, then quickly go to your own room and go sleep there.”
“You won’t tell mom or dad?”
“Nah, it will be our secret.”
Happily Justin climbs out of bed, but then he stops and turns to Kevin.
“I’m not scared. Not really.... I just....” Okay, talk yourself out of this one, kid.
“You didn’t want to be all alone?” Kevin offers and Justin smiles, yes, that sounds good.
“How did you know?”
“I didn’t like being all alone either....” Kevin confesses and Justin is satisfied with the answer until he reaches the door.
“But who did you go to when.... you didn’t want to be alone?”
“Sarah.... but ssshhhhh.” He places his index-finger to his lips and winks. Justin grins. He gets it.
He peaks around the door. There no one in sight.
“Coast is clear...” Justin reports, then slightly more hesitant. “I AM a big boy, Kevin. I’m really trying to be.” And he sees Kevin cover his face with the sheet, not knowing that Kevin is hiding his laughter.
“Sure you are, Justin.” Kevin then replies seriously. “But it is all very new to you. It takes so much to remember. Cleaning up, doing chores, keep up with your homework, getting good grades in school. Sometimes you just ... forget? ... something. It’s easy for dad to say that you’re a big boy now.
He’s been a big boy for so long, that he cannot remember what it was like in the beginning. I do. Don’t worry. I won’t tell dad, if you won’t.”
“Alright.” Justin smiles, opens the door and then closes it again. “How did Sarah know?”
“What it is like to be big boy. How can she know? She’s a girl.”
“Maybe at one point becoming a big girl is the same as becoming a big boy... I don’t know... I’ll ask her next time I see her.” Kevin replies, biting his lip ferociously.
“Yeah, I really want to know.” Justin mumbles and then he leaves Kevin’s room.
Tommy can’t sleep. He watches the ceiling. He knows it very well now. He’s been staring at it for the last couple of nights. Not sure of what he’s supposed to do. As if life wasn’t complicated enough for him right now, he had had a fight with Kitty this morning and it still bugs him.
“Really, Tommy, you have to talk to mom. You have to mediate.”
“Kit, I don’t have to do anything. You have a problem with mom, you solve it.”
“I thought I could always depend on you. You know, it was always us against Sarah and Kevin, our Democrat siblings. We would always support each other.”
“That support between us only exists when you need something from me. Otherwise I never hear from you.”
“What?! Whatever do you mean?”
“Julia left a message on your answering machine, that she’s pregnant.”
“Yes, I heard, but what...?”
“Would it have killed you to text back a ‘congratulations’? You know how hard Julia tried to get pregnant. Everyone is happy for us. Except you. You can’t be bothered.”
“But Tommy, ...”
“Do you know how silly it makes me feel to have to read in news paper that you and Jonathan will be married? When did you plan on telling us? Next Christmas? When you manage to crawl out of you ivory towers to attend a meeting with us, mere mortals, who should not even be seen in the company of a divine creature like you?”
“Tommy, I’m sorry about Julia, it’s just....”
“Yeah, I know, you are SO busy... everybody want you and needs you. And everyone else had first priority with you over your own family, no?.. No, I’m not going to talk with mom on your behalf. If you can argue with Warren Salters, then you can argue with mom.”
He had hung up the phone and Kitty had tried three times to call him back, but he had turned her down. And sure, that night there had been an email from Kitty for Julia, about how sorry she was for not replying soon and how thrilled she was about Julia’s pregnancy, but to Tommy nothing felt the same.
He doesn’t know what to do. He doesn’t have real friends, he’s always busy working. He feels he can no longer trust his wife. He’s moved away from his sister, Kitty, who he had put his hopes on, but in who he was bitterly disappointed right now. He doesn’t know how to reach out to Kevin, Sarah and Justin.
Kitty is right, the divide between them had always been there. Started with some mock ‘rivalry’ about politics, but it had been a deeper divide on other levels. Tommy feels that Sarah, Kevin and Justin are more emotional then Kitty and him. But now he misses someone to talk to... about emotional stuff.... He feels so alone.
The sliding door opening wakes Scotty up. He sits up.
“Justin?” He says surprised. “Justin, are you alright?” He gets up and walks over to Justin, who just stands there. Feeling his fore-head Scotty notices that Justin is burning up with fever. His eyes shine too brightly and he breathes slowly and deeply as if he has trouble breathing.
Kevin wakes up as well.
“Justin?” He asks, Scotty shakes his head.
“Fever. His pyjamas are soaked.”
“Justin, honey, what do you want? What do you need?” Kevin asks quietly.
Justin starts to cry.
“I don’t want to be alone.. I’m a big boy, I know, but I don’t want to be alone.” It sounds like a small child crying and Scotty looks at Kevin with panic, worried about Justin, but Kevin cups Justin’s face in his hands.
“I’m right here, kid.” He says gently. “Come.”
And he guides Justin to the bed. Kevin lies down first and Justin almost immediately crawls closely to Kevin. It gives Scotty a bit of a confused feeling.
“Don’t look at me like that. I never touched him. Nor he me.” Kevin replies with a sad voice to the unanswered question. “We were just lonely.
Dad forbade us to keep running to mom whenever we got scared. Around 7-8 years old he would tell us, that we were big enough to take care of ourselves and that we shouldn’t always stick to mom. Just because dad decides one day that you are a big boy, doesn’t mean you are... I wasn’t... And neither was Justin.
Sarah was the big sister, who was always there for me. Another pair of arms to run to, when mom wasn’t around or in this case, I wasn’t allowed to go to mom. And I became that person to Justin. It lasted almost 2 years and then Justin decided he was big enough and he no longer came to my room whenever he was scared or needed to cry.”
“I find it hard to believe that your mother would simply turn you kids down like this.” Scotty frowns and Kevin shrugs.
“Looking back, I don’t even think she knew. I think it was more dad’s decision than mom’s, but at that age you don’t contradict your father or your mother. At least, I didn’t.”
“Shall I go sleep in the guest-room then?”
“No. Justin doesn’t know you’re here. He hasn’t really registered your existence. He’s too lost in his own feverish world.... and ... I need you.” He nearly begs Scotty to stay. “I need you with me. I don’t want to be alone either.”
“Then you won’t be.” Scotty decides. He lies down on the other side of Justin. Justin still feels feverish, but his breathing is calm and deep. He is obviously in a deep sleep. Scotty makes sure his body doesn’t come into touch with Justin’s, to avoid that Justin will feel uncomfortable in the morning.
He merely takes Kevin’s hand, which is behind Justin’s back and holds it, thus letting Kevin know he’s right there. Kevin smiles and squeezes Scotty’s hand.
“Thank you.” Scotty can hear him whisper in the dark.
“’s Alright. I love you.” That is all Scotty can reply.
END OF PART 31