About: Chad/Scotty, Justin, Kevin/Scotty, Nora, Fawn
Disclaimer: I don’t own anything
Extra: This an AU (Alternative Universe) story, so remember : The more things change, the more they stay the same. Here are part 01, part 02, part 03, part 04, part 05, part 06, part 07, part 08, part 09, part 10, part 11, part 12, part 13, part 14, part 15, part 16, part 17, part 18, part 19, part 20 and part 21
NEW YEAR’S EVE 2007
“Fixed!” Scotty says and Chad grins.
“I can see why Kevin loves you.”
“Because I changed the light-bulbs?”
“Yes.... No... Kinda. Scotty, that is who you are.”
“Who am I?”
“I don’t know. You. You know.” Chad shrugs.
“No.” Scotty grins
“Exactly the person Kevin needs.”
“What would that make me?” Scotty is now seriously curious.
“Someone who takes action. Who is not going to wait around for something to happen to him, or someone doing something for him, but who just goes for what he wants.” Scotty is not entirely sure he would agree with that assessment.
He waited way too long to get rid of Mark. He waited way too long with going after Kevin. But then Chad goes on.
“Kevin is ready for something more in his life. Some stability, some security. I still like to change partner a lot, but Kevin is way past that stage. Far more mature. And so are you.”
“Is that a compliment or an insult?” Scotty laughs. “You make me sound as if I’m 50 years old and considering retirement.”
“No, that is not what I meant.” Chad quickly corrects himself. “It’s just that, I’m 34 years old and I can still be rather flaky. I know what I’m like, so don’t contradict me on this.”
“I wasn’t.” Scotty mumbles, loud enough for Chad to hear, but after two weeks of seeing a lot of Chad and his current partner Steven, Scotty feels he can afford the joke at Chad’s expense. And indeed, Chad smiles at him, not in the least bit offended. He’s grown rather fond of Scotty and he’s glad that Scotty is so free with him.
“See, that’s what I mean. You’re 25 years old and so much more in control than I am.”
“I’ve learned the hard way that I never again want to relinquish control, that is not the same.” Scotty sighs.
“Do you love Kevin? I mean, really love him?” Chad suddenly asks.
Scotty turns to Chad, feeling the question to be rather inappropriate, but he sees that Chad is not joking. So he sits down at the kitchen-table to face Chad.
“Yes, I love him.” Scotty replies very sincere. Chad takes Scotty’s hand into his own.
“Don’t hurt him, Scotty. He doesn’t deserve that. He’s the best.”
Scotty feels uneasy, wondering how the joyful teasing had suddenly turned into this serious talk.
“I’d never hurt him. I love him way too much to hurt him.”
“Good, because you have no idea how much he loves you.”
At that moment, the door swings open and Kevin and Steven come in, laughing and cheerful. They were at the market to get the groceries for dinner this evening.
“Got everything on your list, Scotty.” Kevin beams with pride. And Scotty forgets about Chad instantly and helps Steven and Kevin unpack.
Justin watches Fawn with growing concern. He talked to his sponsor and hers. Officially they don’t have a relationship. They just discovered that they have something major in common, but neither of them is willing to commit to the other, both still dealing too much with their own pain.
They are both past their ‘dangerous’ first year at AA, but neither of them feels like they have reached a good point. Every day is still a struggle. Every night a battle-zone, where they fight against their demons and nightmares. It is screwed up, painful sometimes. They love each other with passion, they hurt each other with passion.
And this last week has been particularly screwed up. After her trip to her parents’ house, Fawn sunk away into a depression, where she first cursed Adam for ruining her life, but then ended up sitting in the corner of the bedroom, curled up into a heap of limbs, screaming that she missed Adam and that she wanted him back.
Her mood-swings worry him. He even believed a few times that she might have taken something, but he couldn’t find proof of it. And he watches her, knowing he can’t be with her all the time. She has to work and so does he. He sighs, he considers calling his sponsor once again, because he is scared about what she might do and how it will affect him.
But as he grabs his phone, it rings. The displays tells him “Mom”.
“Justin? Honey? Are you sure you won’t be joining us for dinner tonight.”
“Sorry, mom, I want to be with Fawn.”
“Take her with you.”
“Uh, no, thanks, Fawn has a bad cold and she doesn’t want others to get sick.” He says and Fawn smiles at him, glad they don’t have to go to the Walkers. She feels she won’t be able to handle them tonight.
“Justin....” A different voice now says.
“Justin, I want you here tonight. We are a family and that is where you should spend New Year’s Eve. Kevin is not here. You cannot abandon your mother like that as well...”
“Justin,” Fawn now interferes. “Why don’t you go alone? Just for an hour or two, three. Make them happy. I’m not in the mood to sit at the table with them, but don’t let me stop you from having some fun. You love your family, go to them. I’ll be fine. I’ll grab a sandwich. Just... be here before midnight.”
“I will...” Justin promises. “Well, you heard it, mom, you have an extra guest tonight.” His mother’s little squee doesn’t go unnoticed and he smiles.
“One happy mother.” He grins and even Fawn smiles. Justin almost forgot how pretty she is when she smiles.
“Ten ... nine.. eight... seven...” Scotty’s eyes search for Kevin. He had a huge smile on his face. The dinner Scotty had made for Chad and his friends was perfect. Everyone had complimented Scotty on a job well done and Kevin could swear that Scotty had grown taller by a few inches tonight. Kevin steps closer to Scotty and takes his hand.
“Four... three... two... one...” A loud cheer, but not from Kevin and Scotty. Their lips meet before the “one” was called and their kiss lasts until long after the first cheers.
“Kevin! Scotty! Don’t you guys ever come up for air?” Steven wonders out loud and noticing they are the centre of attention, Kevin and Scotty let go of each other.
Scotty accepts the hugs and kisses from Chad and Steven, hands are shaken and best wishes passed on. And Scotty feels dazed. Only last year, he had spent the evening watching Mark and two of his friends get drunk, rude and obnoxious and he had ended up in bed with Mark’s friends, while Mark watched....
He shivers, shakes the thoughts away and concentrates on Kevin, who is looking at him with a smile on this face, beaming so much pride and love that Scotty feels a blush rise to his cheeks. God, he loves Kevin so much.
Kevin joins him and gently caresses Scotty’s cheek.
“Looks like it is too hot in here. Why don’t we go back to our house? It’s just a short walk along the beach.”
“Good idea.” Scotty smiles.
Fawn shakes her head quickly as the shiver runs down her spine. That drink hit the right spot. Again. With the bottle in her hand she dances through the room, dancing to a song in her head. She giggles as she vaguely realizes how silly she must look, Justin would laugh his head off…. No, he wouldn’t because he doesn’t like it when she drinks…
And she knows she shouldn’t drink, but on her way back from work, she had known she needed a bottle to get her through the night. She just had to drink. She had to numb her feelings, her thoughts, her pain. She had planned to call her sponsor. She had planned to call Justin, but then she had put away her phone and bought the bottle.
The first drink had been easier than she had thought. She had thought that she would second-guess herself, think about, reason with it, but she had simply poured into a glass and then down her throat. The second was just as easy and now she’s holding the third and she’s feeling pretty good. She sees the clock, it’s nearly ten thirty. Where is Justin?
Justin watches the clock. Nearly nine-thirty only? This evening seems longer than usual. He promised himself to leave at around ten, so that he would still have some time with Fawn. He tries to not stare at the clock too much, it’s impolite and for the 50th time this evening he wished he had taken his watch with him.
Oh, he shouldn’t complain. In all, it had been an agreeable evening. He missed Kevin naturally. The evening sure wasn’t the same without him. Strange. Justin had never thought about the impact Kevin had on his life. Kevin was just always there. And somehow the house seems empty without him.
Something vital to calling this house a ‘home’ is missing. It is like coming here and there would be no Nora. Impossible to imagine. He reckons that the saying ‘you don’t know what you’ve got, until it’s gone’ starts to make sense. And he decides, that one of his New Year resolutions will be, that he’ll get back in touch with Kevin some more.
Nora sees that Justin is in deep thoughts. She sighs, she wishes she could make life easier for Justin and Fawn, but she knows she can’t. Maybe she should simply put some more food on the table... On her way to the kitchen she passes the clock that Justin had been watching and she makes a mental note that she should really replace the battery. The clock is slow.
END OF PART 22