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MY KEVIN/SCOTTY AND OTHER B&S FANFIC
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7 years LiveJournal...  
30th-Nov-2014 10:52 pm
marea67
7 years!  I’ve enjoyed writing a lot. I’ve learned a lot. It has expanded my horizon. I’ve gotten a lot of nice reviews, sometimes very personal stories, good discussions, the occasional hate-mail and spam, but in general I’ve been happy with this account.

So, I can say that it’s been a good run. But all good things must come to an end.

I’ve written 346 stories consisting of 1048 chapters. 1.839.576 words…I’ve however noticed the decline in interest. There were fewer and fewer responses and this last 2 months I’ve written/posted 15 stories with a total of 41 stories, which got an total of 14 responses.

I guess it’s only natural that interest dries up. The show got canceled a long time ago. Most people have moved on and maybe it’s time for me to do the same. I’m not saying that I will never ever write Kevin/Scotty again. They’re still in my system.

Just, right now, it no longer offers me much fun to write them. English is not my native language and sometimes it takes me a while to write a halfway-decent story. Maybe I've spent too much time on writing them. I don't know.

Perhaps the writing bug bites me again when Matthew returns with The Americans (though the show is not that inspirational to be honest, so I doubt it) or when Luke shows his face in Killjoys. I don’t know.

I only know that I’ve deleted all other ‘still pending’ stories, gotten rid of all ‘don’t throw away yet’-ideas, set free the remaining plot-bunnies, finished the last stories that I wanted to post, with ‘Everything Scotty wanted to know….’ as the last one, for the time being.

I’m not saying goodbye to Brothers & Sisters. I’ve decided to finally get back to something that I’ve been wanting to do since the show got cancelled in 2011 and that is my “Brothers and Sisters archives”.  I’ve just never had the time to dedicate to it, and hopefully, now I have. Or not. I don't know.

I’m not entirely done with Matthew Rhys, though I will probably stop making the calendar pages. It’s a lot of work for just one or two interested people. On the other hand, it’s fun to play with Matthew (‘s pictures) so I’m not sure about what to do with that.

I started this year with the feeling that 2014 would be my year and in a lot of ways it was not. I’ve had some minor ups and some huge downs. There have been some tough moments this year and where writing Kevin/Scotty had once been my escape-pod, it didn’t work anymore.

So maybe it’s also the year where I have to say goodbye to things I used to love, with the hope that it will replaced by something that I will love in the future.

I want to thank the few remaining readers very much for everything. I'm so grateful for the time you've given my writing...  
Comments 
13th-Jan-2015 06:52 pm (UTC)
I don't know if you'll see this. I don't know if you're still around.

I had a pretty complicated 2014. I had hopes for 2015, and then everything changed last week. We are mourning. It's hard to imagine the future, now. Je suis Charlie. But it's not the point.

I used to love LJ so much! Logged in everyday. Created communities. Tried to join in the fun, and different fandoms. I never did it for the comments (although they do make you feel good) more for the sense of community and camaraderie I missed in real life. It never worked. Maybe I chose the wrong fandoms, maybe I was too discreet, too slow in writing a fic. In fanfic world, it's about spontaneity.

Today, I realized I've moved on. Found 88 messages in my inbox after a few months of not visiting the site. I didn't have that many even when I launched a new round of story lottery!

All this rambling to say that I understand what you're saying, and feel the same. It's only natural to have our interests change after a while. 7 years of memories, of stories, of conversations, of Brothers and Sisters. :)

Guess what! You have many years ahead to come, and find some fun and memories elsewhere. I wish you a lovely and creative 2015.

semisweetsoul ;)
13th-Jan-2015 09:31 pm (UTC)
I heard about the attacks in Paris. It was horrendous. I've felt numb for several days, the hostage-situation, the shooting at the store. Couldn't process what was going on. It is so sad. And, boy, did the French show dignity with the March in Paris and today with the honering of the dead police-officers. Moved me so much.

And apparently now IS/AlQaida have made new 'warnings' that also mention Amsterdam ... Which is about as far away from me as Paris is. A 2-3 hour drive. It's a weird feeling. Sigh..

*****

As you can see, I'm still here. And I'm still looking in. Sometimes even tempted to almost write B&S, because I miss K/S...

There's a silence in me, but right now, there's a REASON for that silence and I think I must face that silence rather than fill it up with the voices of K/S and drown the real problems in my life.

I consider 2014 a year of 'transition', of finding closure, of giving things a certain place in my life. Some general 'clean up' where my emotions were concerned.

I don't know why, but I have faith in 2015. Even with this miserable start.

Plus, I think that if I would now let fear run my life, I'd be giving in to a bunch of cowards, who hide behind a religion to mask that they're just pathetic murderers, with a desire to hurt, kill and destroy because they have nothing better to offer this world.

I wish you love, peace and happiness for 2015. As tough as it is, don't let "them" win. Nous sommes tous Charlie.

Sylviane
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