About: Chad, but Kevin, Scotty and Jason will pop up as well.
Rate: Mmmnot sure yet.
Disclaimer: The usual blah-blah....
Summary: Something happens to Chad and it ‘ain’t purdy’…. Idea given to me by Darkestboy in 2012, though it didn't quite end up as I had expected. :) References made to Alex Grodin, who's the main character in Happy now? and Last Christmas, though you don't really need to have read them to follow this one.
Warning: Deals with non-consensual sex and touches upon the subject of incest, without going too much into detail, but if these are triggers for you, don't read it.
Shirley is a few weeks away from her supposed due-date. Though she’s getting less medication than before, her head still isn’t clear enough. Sometimes she wonders if all these pills will be good for her baby, but she then comforts herself with the idea that they would never let anything happen to the child of Chad Barry. So, she’s safe.
She has made her own calendar. Every day, when it gets dark, she ticks off one day. One day closer to Lillian’s birth. She can’t wait to see her child. Chad will be so happy. Maybe he will even come and see Shirley. He’ll kiss her and congratulate her on a job well done and compliment her on what a wonderful mother she is.
Sometimes she’s plagued by nightmares. The other babies show up in her cell and want to know why Lillian is more important than they were. Each time Shirley explains to them, that they are just as import to her, but she hadn’t known what to do then and now she does. And she holds on to her fantasy of Lillian, unable to deal with the fact that she’s no longer there.
By the end of eighth month, Rose is on constant surveillance at the hospital. She’s trying to hold on, but her body is failing her more and more. Chad and Jason are with her as much as they can and they make sure that she gets the best medical care there is and in the hospital she’s monitored the whole day.
Her room is decorated with the drawings that Paige, Cooper, Olivia, Evan and Daniel have made for her. Nora drops in every day, so Chad and Jason can find some time to themselves. Scotty prepares delicious meals for Rose, to make sure that she stays strong, but slowly it becomes harder for her to finish them.
With Kitty’s help, Rose writes down as much of her life as she remembers, all the wisdoms she would want to give her child. The fact that Kitty had battled cancer and knows what it means to face death, made her an easy person to talk to for Rose. Kitty tells her about her own fears during that time and Rose opens up to Kitty about her own fears.
Kevin takes on all the legal arrangements, and together with Jill, he makes sure that nothing and no one can come between Chad and Jason and the child they want to have. And Rose can only repeat what she’s been telling everyone around her. That she’s blessed with these beautiful people around her. And so will her baby be.
Two weeks before the date that she would have delivered her child, Shirley’s medication is turned down even further. She’s mostly in a state of apathy anyway, so the doctors can’t see any further reason to keep her calm with medication. But her state of apathy is brought on by the fact that Shirley wants to conserve energy.
She knows that having a child will ask a lot of her body and she doesn’t want to make any mistakes. She tried to get information on what best to do, but the doctors talk over her, acting like her baby isn’t there anymore, but she knows Lillian is growing just fine. She talks to Lillian every night.
Every night, she tells her baby that everything will alright, that Chad will take care of her, that mommy will join her too, that everybody will love her. She’s afraid that Lillian will grow up feeling scared and weird and alone, just like she had. All she can do is tell Lillian that she has better options and that her life will be better than Shirley’s had been.
Two weeks before her due date Rose slips into a coma and the decision is made to immediately deliver the baby. That afternoon Rose’s daughter is born. Rose wakes up, one more time. She can see her child, and with Chad’s hand guiding her, she can touch and caress her baby.
A few hours later, surrounded by the Walkers, and with Chad, Jason and her baby next to bed, Rose slips into another coma and dies peacefully, amongst people who had grown to love her. Losing her shocks the Walkers momentarily. They knew it would happen, but now that the moment is here, it hurts more than they had expected.
For Nora it brings back memories of the night she lost William, while Kitty is thrown back to the moment that the machines, that had kept Robert alive, were switched off. In all, it leaves no one unaffected. They quietly and withdrawn help to clean up the room and take all of the decoration away. Rose wouldn’t need any more cheering up.
The funeral is held a few days later. No one of her family shows up, even though Chad had informed them of Rose’s death. It does surprise the Walkers somewhat. They can’t believe that there is apparently no forgiveness that Rose’s family could give. Such a shame…
They all gather at Chad and Jason’s house after the funeral. There is coffee and other drinks and they can finally talk to each other and repeat over and over again that it’s a pity that no one of Rose’s family had come to say goodbye or even take a look at the new-born baby. They couldn’t understand it all.
Eventually, Chad stands up and asks for everyone’s attention.
“I know that this is a weird day for all of us. I want to thank all of you, with all my heart, for everything that you’ve done for Rose. And for Jason and me. We can’t tell you how much we’ve appreciated all the care that you’ve given her.
Rose had been lost for quite a while, but, just before she died, she told me that she was happy that she had been guided back into a group of loving friends and how all of you felt like the family she never had… She wanted the best for her daughter and she believed she found that with us. And with you guys.
We’ve registered our child yesterday… As per Rose’s wish her name will be Lily, but because we didn’t want her mother to be forgotten, we’ve decided to add Rose’s name to that of her daughter.” Jason takes the little girl in his arms. “So I present you: Lily-Rose McCallister-Barry.”
“Shirley is flipping. Going berserk… We need help!” The alarm-call comes in and soon after that Shirley is back in the infirmary, strapped to a bed.
“My baby! My baby is coming!” She cries.
“Shirl, there is no baby. You lost her weeks ago.” A nurse tries to explain to her kindly.
“No. No. My baby is ready. She’s coming! I can feel it…!”
“Shirley, there is no baby…” The nurse puts a needle in Shirley’s arm. “You’ll feel better in the morning.” She assures Shirley. She pats Shirley’s arm and leaves Shirley all alone in her bed… The world fades away for Shirley…