2.13 Separation anxiety
B&S doesn’t belong to me. Written with love, not for money. Summary:
3 month hiatus! I can write what I want!…. Mhmmm Ranchero!
Kevin looks annoyed. Almost as annoyed as Scotty feels, sitting on the hood of the Ranchero.
“Thanks for coming to pick me up.” Scotty says after Kevin’s quick kiss.
“What is wrong with it this
time?” he asks annoyed.
“Don’t know, it won’t start. Battery is dead or something.” Scotty answers. Kevin tries to start the car too, but nothing happens. “I’ll call a mechanic in the morning. There a few of them working at 1 o’clock at night.” Scotty shrugs tired.
Sitting next to Kevin in Kevin’s car, he is quiet, occasionally seeing Kevin’s face in the passing lamp-lights. Kevin is irritated. He can tell that much.
“I’m sorry I woke you. I should have…”
“Forget it. I’m tired, I’ve had a long day and a stupid meeting this evening didn’t help. So just…” Kevin holds in his anger and concentrates on the road, but Scotty’s defenses are up.
“Well, I’m sorry, my day wasn’t any less tiring. I just wanted to get home quickly and …”
“Then why the hell don’t you get yourself another friggin’ car?! … Oh, I know! You don’t have the money to do so and heaven forbid you should accept MY help. I am just room-mate
, right?” Kevin explodes. Scotty bites his lip. He doesn’t want to argue, they are both tired, it’s been a long week, Scotty is this
close to his exams, Kevin is working on a huge case and the Ranchero quitting on him is unsettling. So he remains quiet the rest of the way home, as Kevin parks the car, as they go to their loft and eventually their bedroom.
Kevin undresses and Scotty follows his example. Once in bed, Kevin simply says ‘goodnight’ and turns off the light. Lying beside Kevin Scotty can no longer stand the silence. He turns to his side and crawls closer to Kevin. The back of his hand caresses Kevin’s upper-arm.
“Please, don’t be angry with me.” He whispers in the dark, knowing that Kevin will have to really pay attention to him if he wants to hear what Scotty has to say.
“I’m not. Not really. I just don’t understand why you won’t accept my help.” Kevin whispers back.
As Kevin turns to his side to face Scotty, Scotty formulates his next line.
“It’s not that I don’t want
to buy another car, I can’t
. I love that car so much. She would drive me away from bad relationships, towards new opportunities. She was a place to sleep when I lost my house and couldn’t stay with friends. She was my safe haven…. If I lose that…..”
want to be your safe haven, Scotty.” The little plea in Kevin’s voice doesn’t go unnoticed.
Scotty moves between Kevin’s arms, so his head can be against Kevin’s chest.
“I guess, I have forgotten what it’s like to rely on someone else. I’ve been taking care of myself for so long.” Scotty sighs. Kevin caresses Scotty’s hair and kisses the top of his head gently.
“Me too…. That is why I am so happy you are in my life. I want to share my life with you and be a part of yours... You are my lover, my boyfriend. Let
me share.” Scotty smiles and kisses Kevin’s chest. Kevin squeezes Scotty closer for a few seconds to let him know that he registered the kiss and locked in their embrace they fall asleep.