Disclaimer: B&S doesn’t belong to me. Written with love, not for money.
Summary: Food for the soul.
He was glad that, due to his professional behavior in the kitchen, he had built up enough credibility for himself, that his boss allowed him to go home earlier. He felt like he would go absolutely mad if he had to stay longer and not know what was happening at home. Scotty didn’t know what he expected when he walked into Kevin’s loft.
Kevin’s loft, not his. He shouldn’t make the difference but he did. And he was even more aware of it, now that he was in the kitchen. He was aware that Jason was in the living-room. He could hear Kevin and Jason talk. Just the sound of their voices, not the words itself. Jason laughed and Scotty winced.
He knew what Jason looked like from the pictures. He had not expected Jason to look this good in person, to have such a warm voice, a pleasant laughter and his behavior to Scotty was nothing if not friendly, be it slightly amused. He really wanted to hate or maybe just dislike Jason, but he couldn’t. It’s hard to dislike someone who feels as uncomfortable as you do.
Oh, why did he have to make such an impulsive decision to throw himself into this? Why did he have to be so jealous? Why could he not just trust Kevin? And Scotty blushed. Jason had seemed so taken by surprise and Kevin so unpleasantly shocked. He shouldn’t have done it. He should have stayed at ‘San Estephe’ and pray that everything would go right.
And now, Kevin would see them both. Scotty, dirt-poor, acting like a child, immature and behaving like an idiot by not trusting Kevin.. And Jason, calm, adult, in charge, not to forget rich and sophisticated…. Well played, Scotty! He never felt more miserable in his life. And he needs to prepare the food for Kevin and his ex. Foolishly enough it was his own stupid idea.
As he unpacks even further, he sees his hands are trembling. This is not going to work. He needs to be calm and focused. He closes his eyes. Remembers his yoga-lessons, tries to find some inner peace, because only then can he excel in what he plans to do. See, there is one thing that Jason can’t do and he, Scotty, can. Jason is not a good cook, he knows this because Kevin told him. And Scotty is.
He straightens his shoulders and puts his wrists under the cold water, to get his blood going again. And then Scotty is going to prepare Kevin the meanest, most delicious soft-shelled crabs EVER in the history of humanity and he takes a deep breath and as he displays everything he needs, he becomes calm and starts to smile.
As he feels the crabs between his fingers, he is on familiar ground. As the herbs and spices get added Scotty reclaims the kitchen without hesitation. He knows exactly what he is doing. And by the time he serves the food to Kevin and Jason he is in control and confident with himself again. He has nothing to be ashamed of. He holds his head up high. He made a perfect meal. If this is the end of this relationship with Kevin, at least it will be a memorable one.