August 20, 2008
It’s 39 days to go until the start of season 3 in America.
There are 39 episodes for season 1 and 2. (Not taking the unaired episode in account or the original pilot, as not everybody can see those)
I started to watch the episodes again. One episode a day.
And then I got the plan to write a small scene for every episode. (Never more than 1 page long)
2.05 Domestic issues
Disclaimer: B&S doesn’t belong to me. Written with love, not for money.
Summary: It’s so easy.
So, this is how easy it is, to cheat on your wife. You just pick up you drunk office manager and you kiss her. She’s eager, he can tell. She likes him, she told him so. Holly is going to hate it, she made that clear. And if Julia ever finds out, there will be hell to pay. But he doesn’t mind, his body tells him that. Just kissing Lena is already so wrong and forbidden that it feels right and delicious.
Is this why his father cheated on his mother? This rush makes him feel high. The adrenaline runs through him. Slowly Lena lets go of him and he drives her back to her place. And he swears, he will just drop her off, that’s all. He can’t do this to Julia. It would be wrong. But at her house, she turns to him and asks sweetly:
“Coming up for a drink?” And his minds screams “no!”, but he gets out of the car almost as if his body had a mind of it’s own. Anhd a one track-mind too..
He never gets the promised drink. Once in the room they kiss again and she responds to him exactly as he wants. She holds on to him, moves her body against his. And it doesn’t take long or he moves inside her. That well known rhythm that is as old as humanity. She tilts her head back and calls out his name. And it turns him on even more. Moving faster he is only aware of how good it feels. He feels wanted. He feels desired. He feels.
What difference to those last weeks with Julia. In the weeks before the birth of his children she made it clear she didn’t want or need him sexually. Already he didn’t get her pregnant, he couldn’t share her pregnancy, he could not share his life with her, She was so busy with the children and sometimes he felt completely excluded. And since the loss of William, she has been nothing but a shadow of her former self. Crying and easily upset she didn’t appreciate his touching her, not even to comfort her. He was totally useless.
And here was this pretty girl, wrapping her legs around him. He’s allowed to touch her, she doesn’t object to him caressing her. They make love to her and she doesn’t turn away, like he’s a chore on her ‘to do’ list, instead she kisses him some more and tells him she wants him a second time … and a third. He laughs and asks her she thinks he’s still 18 years old. And she laughs with him. And her laughter makes him feel 18 years old agian.
He knows, he should feel guilty. He was so angry when he found out that William had cheated on Nora. And now he’s doing the same thing to his wife. He wanted to walk into his father’s footsteps, but he realizes this is ridiculous,… but it feels so good. He rolls on top of her again and kisses her and he promises to himself he’ll end this tomorrow. For Holly is right. Tonight was not a mistake, he had made a choice.