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39 steps - step 16 - 2.01 Home front 
13th-Sep-2008 12:00 am
kitty
The 39 steps
August 20, 2008
It’s 39 days to go until the start of season 3 in America.
There are 39 episodes for season 1 and 2. (Not taking the unaired episode in account or the original pilot, as not everybody can see those)
I started to watch the episodes again. One episode a day.
And then I got the plan to write a small scene for every episode. (Never more than 1 page long)

2.01 Home front

By Marea67
About: Kitty
Rate: G
Disclaimer: B&S doesn’t belong to me. Written with love, not for money.
Summary: birthday curse

*****

Kitty is staring into the night. It all feels so unreal. Only last year she had stood in exactly the same place, watching the paramedics fight for her father’s life. And now she stood here, trying to process the news about Justin. He can’t be dead. He can’t be injured. He can’t be either, because him being safe was supposed to be the correction on last year, when everything went wrong.

Last year her father died, so this year, as recompense her brother should live. She cannot handle disasters, year after year, on her birthday. She can’t. That would be unfair. She takes another sip from her drink and wraps her arm more tightly around herself. The drink burns in her throat, but other than that she feels a chill within her bones. She cannot get warm and she cannot stop shivering. So much has changed.

Last year she was here with Jonathan, considering if she should get engaged  to him and now she is engaged to Robert and she cannot imagine her life without him anymore.
Last year she had but one sister and 3 brothers, now she has 2 sisters and she may have lost a brother…, but she can still not think of Rebecca as a sister, even if they share the same DNA. And she cannot think of Justin as lost. It’s too weird.
Last year she was passively looking at politics, now she’s actively involved.

Last year she believed her father to be a man of honor, a man to look up to and admire, now she knows he was cheater, an embezzler and a fraud.
Last year she thought her mother hated her and that her mother was too depended on her father, now she knows that Nora loves her unconditionally to the point of accepting Robert with open arms and that her mother is a strong and independent woman. A woman to look up to and to admire..

Last year things were so different. Sarah was married to Joe. Tommy and Julia didn’t have a child. Kevin didn’t have a steady relationship, Paige was healthy…. And now, Sarah’s marriage is fading, Tommy and Julia have Lizzie. Kevin has Jason and Paige has been diagnosed with diabetes. A lot can happen in one year. But shouldn’t things also remain the same? The more you change, the more things stay the same?

The house is still here, as is the pool where William died. Nora still drives the same car. There are still all the pictures in the staircase. Ojai is still going strong. The family will go on supporting each other and loving each other. And that makes her stronger in her hope that Justin will be alright. For some many things have changed and certain things have remain the same. And after all the changes… last year Justin was alive and that should remain unchanged.
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