Season 6 – Episode 13 – I still haven't found what I'm looking forBy Marea67
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***** Part 2/4 *****
“What?!?!” Standing behind the bar, Scotty cringes over Kevin’s question. “Your mother?! Of all the people you could ask for help, you asked for your mother?!” Kevin seems upset and Scotty feels bad. He knows that the relationship between Kevin and Bertha isn’t a warm one, even though they’ve been taking baby-steps towards each other.
“Kev, I’m sorry, I just…” Scotty starts to explain, but Kevin walks up to Scotty, caresses his face and then kisses him softly. He regrets that he was so quick to judge. He knows it’s not up to him to decide who Scotty wants to turn to. And the last thing he wants is to fight with Scotty.
“No, I’m the one who should be sorry. You have every right to talk to your mother, of course. And ask her for her help, if that is what you truly want to do… It surprised me a bit, that’s all, because, if you needed one of your parents, I thought that you would have called Wally instead, but …”
“I thought about it.” Scotty confesses. “And to be honest, I regret calling mom.”
“When will she be here?”
“Well, she’d have to pack, get tickets, travel by bus to the airport, get on a plane, fly here… I don’t know. Another day? I guess she’ll call me when she lands here at LAX.”
“So, we still have some time. Did you tell her?”
“About our problems with your mom? No, not really. I wasn’t in the mood for any lectures about you or Nora.”
“Thanks. I’m not in the mood to immediately start defending myself.” Kevin sighs.
They smile at each other and Kevin kisses away the ‘I’m sorry’ that is on Scotty’s lips. He’s about to make the kiss even more intense when they hear the door of Café 429 being opened and they immediately let go of each other.
“Hi!” Bertha waves, an almost apologetic smile on her face.
“Mom! How … How did you get so fast?” Scotty is shocked!
“I drove here. GPS is a handy little feature to have in your car.” She smiles nervously and, to Kevin, she looks as if she’s a 16 year old who just had her first kiss.
?” Kevin repeats.
“But you don’t have a drivers license.” Scotty says. Bertha shows him her broadest smile, which somehow frightens Kevin even more.
“I do now! Three weeks ago! No more depending on any one. I can do whatever I want to do and go wherever I want to go.”
She seems very excited about this and Kevin and Scotty can’t help but give each other a puzzled look.
“What is going on?” Scotty asks hesitantly… “It’s not that I mind, it’s just .. you’re so different
… somehow.. someway…”
“Can I get some coffee first? It’s been an long drive…” Bertha asks.
“Yes, of course.” Kevin nearly jumps up and quickly fixes her some coffee, while Scotty takes another look at his mother and then to her luggage.
“Is that a laptop
?” He asks.
“Yes… Olivia showed me how it all worked when I was here the last time… and when I came back home, I bought one of my own and I’ve been taking lessons at that too. I was hoping that, while I was here .. ahm… one of you could help with installing Skype so that Olivia and I can talk to each other.. I’ve been a bit nervous about downloading things myself.”
Bertha seems nervous about just asking for the favor.
“We’d love that.” Scotty answers breathlessly, still unable to quite understand what is going on.
“Bertha, are you … alright? I mean,… Drivers license? Laptop? You want to Skype with Olivia? A couple of months ago, you didn’t want to know about all these ‘weird gadgets’ as you called them..”
“Yeah, mom, are you in some… midlife crises?” Scotty asks.
He visibly braces himself for a flood of remarks at his address, but she remains remarkable quiet. Instead she seems to take a deep breath.
“After your call about poor Wesley Corvin, a few months ago, it was like … I don’t know… it sort of brought up so many things in me…
I started to evaluate my life. … Almost 50 years old, divorced, all alone, my only son and his family living hours away from me, I depend on public transportation. … It was as if everything came together. Death of a former boyfriend, death of my marriage, death of … who I believed I was and how my life would be.
When …. When I found out your father had cheated on me… I stopped living, it hurt so much….” She doesn’t quite understand the painful looks between Kevin and Scotty. “I know, you don’t want to hear any negative about your dad….” She apologizes to Scotty believing that to be the reason for the tension in Scotty.
“That’s not it…” Scotty reassures her.
“Please, go on.” Kevin asks. “Don’t let us stop you. I think we just know how frustrating the aftermath of cheating be can be.” Kevin keeps it general. “It’s just that you seemed to be so in control. You seemed to handle yourself so well.”
“That… that was just me holding my breath, not relaxing, not dealing with anything, just move on.. and on. …. But when Scotty told me about Wesley…” She shakes her head. Unable to deal with the pain he sees on her, Scotty asks:
“So what did you do?”
“I went to talk to a psychiatrist.”
“You?! A psychiatrist?!”
“And he asked me a lot of questions about me and my life. And after a few times, he asked what it was that I wanted in my life and …. I had no idea what I wanted.”
Scotty and Kevin remain quiet, they have no idea of what to say. Bertha smiles, though she obviously feels uneasy.
“But, I think, in the end, all I wanted was my life back, my freedom. I wanted to have dreams again and be able to make peace with the past…”
Scotty wonders how she plans to do just that and if her plans include him.
“So… I learned how to drive, I learned to work with the computer, I’ve applied for a few jobs, not that those really helped… I’m trying to improve myself. A new Bertha, if you wish. Version 2.0. Still in beta… It’s not running perfectly, but it shows promise.... I hope.”
Her laugh is a mix of fear, shyness and awkwardness.
“I’m trying too hard, right?” She ask quietly.
“Well, I have to admit, this version of you is … is… it’s very…” Scotty looks at Kevin for help.
“… Unsettling.” Kevin answers without hesitation and Scotty cringes.
He punches Kevin in the side and Kevin whispers an annoyed ‘what?’ to him.
“What we mean is.. it takes a bit of getting used to
.” Scotty says, although the look on Kevin’s face proves that it was not at all
what he had meant to say. "There’s just one problem, mom.” Scotty says.
“I hadn’t expected you here so soon… We haven’t arranged a place for you to sleep. Not yet anyway. Not that it should be that difficult, we have a hotel, but…” Scotty stammers, but Bertha shakes her head.
“It’s alright. I already have a place for tonight.”
“Where are you staying?”
“With your father.” She answers and Kevin swears that he can about knock Scotty over with a feather.
“M-m-my father..?” Scotty asks.
“Our divorce was nearly three years ago. Most of the pain and sense of betrayal is gone. I can’t say that I’m overly sad that his relationship with Moira went nowhere, but I would never say that to him.
I’ve always known that we weren’t making each other happy, but that doesn’t mean that I want him to be unhappy. So, Wally and I have spoken to each other. Just a few times. We spoke to each other like two mature adults. We were polite and respectful to each other on the phone …
And when I told him that I was coming here, he offered me his guest-room. I turned it down first, feeling that it might be inappropriate, but… that’s silly. So I called him back, asked him if he was serious about it, which he was and I can stay at his place… He doesn’t live that far away from here, does he?”
“N-n-no, it’s less than an hour…”
“Good, would it be possible for me to freshen up a bit? When is Olivia coming home? I can’t wait to see Daniel as well.”
“Go upstairs, the door is open.” Kevin answers and Bertha disappears from view.
Scotty sits down on one of the stools of the bar.
“Has the world gone mad?”
“If it has, I didn’t get the memo.” Kevin answers dryly.
“No seriously. Mom is trying to be nice
“It’s a scary world.”
“Does any of this make sense to you?”
“No.” Kevin admits. “But, the last time she was here, when we had to go to Ida’s funeral, she was already getting used to the idea of us and she just loves Olivia…”
“True.” Scotty admits.
“Let’s just enjoy her current attempt to be someone else, alright? I'm sure it will blow over soon enough.” Kevin suggests.
“Justin Walker.” Justin picks up his phone without checking who’s calling. It remains silent on the other side. “Hello?”
“I’m sorry, Justin, I think I took the wrong speed-dial number….”
“Oh, hi, Rebecca.”
“I’m sorry for crashing in like this.” Rebecca laughs and Justin smiles as well.
“You’re always welcome.” He replies generously. “So, how are you?”
“I’m fine… I’m very happy. I wanted to call Nora and tell her that… Oh, this feels so weird to say to you…”
“Rick and I got married. This morning.”
“Yes…. Do you remember that little church we saw in Mexico?”
Yes, he does, if she got married there…. it would somehow break his heart.
“We found a church, here in Peru, that had pretty much the same atmosphere and Rick was crazy about it and we decided to get married right there and then. It took a bit of organizing, but …. I’m now married and I wanted to tell this to Nora….”
“Well, you better call her quickly then and not stay on the phone with me for hours.” Justin laughs. “Congratulations, Becca, you deserve all the happiness in the world.” He hears himself say the words. He smiles to make his words sound cheerful, but it’s a cheer he’s not feeling for himself.
“Is that why you came here, Kitty, to try and talk me out of getting custody over Elizabeth?” Kevin asks and Kitty nods. “I don’t understand why you can’t see, that all I want to do is, give that girl some stability in her life.”
“That’s all nice on paper, Kevin, but we all know that she belongs with either Julia or Tommy.”
“True. But neither of them is here.”
“And I think you’re moving too fast. You should give Tommy and Julia more time to get in touch with us.”
“I’ve given them all the time they need. They don’t need weeks
for single phone-call. It takes just seconds.”
“Why are you so stubborn, Kevin?” Kitty asks with a sad face. “Are you that desperate to have Elizabeth as your daughter?”
“She’s my niece. And we both know that it’s only a legal matter. To both of us Tommy is still her father.”
“That’s not true, isn’t it? She’s already getting more attached to you and Scotty, than to Tommy. Even if you don’t mean to, you’re driving a wedge between them.”
“I’m not. Elizabeth knows very well that Tommy and Julia still love her, even though they’re not with her to take care of her.”
“And thank God for the heroic uncles, who are
there for her?” Kitty asks sarcastically and Kevin looks up at her. His eyes become narrow and Kitty expects him to fight back, but instead Kevin’s eyes widen again with a sudden realization and he asks sympathetically.
“Are your nightmares back?”
“M-my nightmares?” Kitty asks, taken aback.
“Robert told me how afraid you were about losing Evan… If your nightmares are back I could understand where you’re coming from…” Kevin answers.
“They’re back.” Kitty admits.
“I’m sorry. I really am. But those are your
nightmares and your
insecurities. I have to deal with what this all does to Elizabeth. And that is my main concern. And for what it’s worth, nobody is going to take Evan away from you. I wouldn’t let it happen.” His voice is filled with the love she knows he carries for her family and it upsets Kitty.
“So, you want to protect me,
but not Tommy? Or is it different, because Elizabeth is biologically yours? Or would you take my child away from me, as you’re doing now with Tommy? Would you add Evan just as easily and without remorse to your family, even if it meant that you’d be ripping my heart out?!...”
“Because that’s what you’ll be doing to Tommy, no matter how you tried to defend yourself for it.” Kitty bites her lip to hold back the tears that come up. “But I see I can’t change your mind, so… I’m out of here.” She walks away without one more look at Kevin.
“I have to say that I was surprised to get your call.” Justin says and Seth shrugs.
“I didn’t like the thought of you teaching me to surf at first, but now, …. I don’t know.”
“The water is too cold though.”
“I know.” Seth sighs.
“So, I don’t want to be rude, but why are we here?” Justin points at the beach. There’s a strong wind and it’s indeed much too cold. Seth shrugs again. “Needed to get out?” Justin asks, trying to figure out what is going on in Seth’s mind. “Come on, man, you can’t ask me to meet you here and then not tell me what is going on.”
“I don’t know what it is… I asked Kitty to marry me, like you suggested. She said no.”
“We’re going to have a baby, but I fear that she won’t give me a chance to be the father, because she’ll take everything out of my hands.”
“Tell her to back off.”
“I’ve tried that with Evan. I know I can’t replace Robert, but at least let me find my own place. Let me make my own mistakes…. I want to be a father, not the man who stands in the doorway, looking at the mother who’s making all the decisions.”
“Have you told her that?”
“Tried. Might as well have spoken to the wall.”
“With Kitty you have to stand your ground. If you let her, she’ll walk all over you.”
“I noticed. But I’m tired of making every little thing I want into a tug of war.”
“Well, that’s Kitty for you. Always fighting. But fighting is good. It’s when Kitty stops fighting you that you have to get concerned.”
“You have to understand. In our family… to fight is to love. It proves you care enough.”
“I agree. But it works. If it’s not worth fighting for, than you wouldn’t have to make such a fuss, now do you? The reason why you fight, is because it matters
“What matters to me is that I’m getting a headache.” Seth says and Justin laughs.
His laugh, however, fades quite quickly and gets replaced by a sad smile.
“I gave up fighting with Rebecca..” He says quietly. Seth looks at him.
“What brought that up?” He asks. Justin shrugs.
“She phoned me accidentally. Told me she and her new boyfriend got married. In Peru.”
“Wow! … Are you very upset about it?” Seth asks, wondering if that is the reason for the way Justin’s mood just tanked.
“I don’t know… Yes… No… I want her to be happy. She couldn’t be happy with me. … It bugs that she can be happy with someone else though.”
“Are you still in love with her? Do you want her back?” Seth wants to know now. Justin doesn’t reply immediately, but seems to think about the question very thoroughly. Surprised, as if he hadn’t seen his answer coming, he looks up at Seth.
“No. I don’t.” Justin says.
“Hi. I’m Sarah.” Sarah sticks out her hand, not sure if she should shake hands, hug or not seek physical contact at all.
“Nick Brody jr.” It’s clear that Nick jr. is the eldest brother. He takes her hand as if it’s a dead fish and lets go as fast as he can.
“That is Angie, she’s my sister.” Angie keeps her hands crossed in front of her chest, clearly not seeking to make contact. “This is Cade… he’s the youngest son from dad’s first marriage. And you’ve already met Lori-Lynn.”
“I had nothing but good things to say about you.” Lori-Lynn says.
“Thank you.” Sarah answers. “I.. I’m grateful to meet all of you … I know this is weird…” She wants to add a 'I've been there myself', but she believes that Brody's children might not appreciate the joke.
“What do you want?” Nick asks, skipping the casual talk.
“Well, I want to get to know you guys. … I didn’t know I had half-siblings and we all have the same father… and I just wanted to know what all of you looked like…”
Sarah would say that it’s the lamest excuse ever and she can see that Nick doesn’t believe her.
“Couldn’t you ask dad for a few pictures? Wouldn’t that have been easier?” Cade wants to know. He’s not necessarily hostile, but more guarded.
“It took me a while to get used to the idea that I’m not William’s daughter, but Brody’s, and at first I completely denied it, but … I’m sorry if you’ve been given the impression that I ‘wanted’ something or ‘needed’ anything from you. I have a sister and 3 brothers of my own and I love them very much.
I hadn’t even thought
of the possibility that Brody had his own kids and that I would have an extended family, until Lori-Lynn crashed my wedding, … I guarantee your guys that, all I want is to find out who Brody is….”
“Maybe you shouldn’t have come here then. We haven’t got a clue either.”
“I know there have been some issues between you and him...”
“Issues? We have no issues with him. He’s out of our lives…” Angie calmly points out.
“You kicked him out of the family-business? You ran him out of a company he built.” Sarah tries to defend Brody. Nick jr’s smile is condescending.
“Well, it was my
business to begin with. I built it, not my father. Dad bought a building and had some mad ideas that went nowhere, so he ran off because he was ‘needed’ for a special team. The team that would be the biggest sensation ever
… of course it went bankrupt 2 years later…
Stuck with a small company, I took it over and made it successful. The family has shares and we’re all equally involved, one way or another. We care
about it. All of us. Except dad of course. He was never there to help, had no ideas to bring to the table. We had to constantly work around him. He was just useless.
So, we took back his shares. Not entirely legal, but definitely not illegal either. He just should have paid more attention. But he no longer has any shares in our company, so we’re free of him.”
“Why do you hate him so much?” Sarah wants to know.
“I don’t hate him, but I don’t care much about him either.” Angie answers.
“Same goes for me.” Cade joins the conversation again.
?” Sarah insists.
“You wouldn’t believe us.” Nick jr replies.
“Listen, you’re the latest gadget. The new toy. But if he gets tired of you, … he’ll drop you again. Just like he did us. Father is a very charming man, who, at least in his own head, means well, but he will not come through for you. When the going gets tough, he’ll run in the other direction.
He’s not reliable. He’ll make promises that he won’t keep. But he’s most notorious for the fact that he’s never-ever there when you need a father. He did it to me. He did it to Angie and he did it to Cade. And last year it was Lori Lynn, who saw the light as well … And next. he’ll do it to you.”
“You’re right. I don’t believe you. Brody loves my mother. He loves me.”
“Yes. He most likely does. He loves to love, but … he can’t handle responsibility. It’s why his marriages went on the rocks, why he can’t keep a job, why he constantly needs to be on the move. If he stays too long in one place, he feels the urge to get out.
I don’t hate him. None of us do, but there comes a time in your life where you’ll have to kick him out or he’ll drain you of all your energy. And we all agreed that that time was last year. We finally had enough… Don’t take it personal. This is not about you, but about how his actions affect us.
As long as you can’t see Brody for what he is, I don’t believe that you can understand us. However, if you see the light, if you can finally see what sort of man Brody is, call us… And Sarah? Be careful for your mother. He loves her. True. But he’ll run. Just like he did before with our mothers. And she’ll be hurt, like our mothers were.”
Sarah shakes her head. She’s unable to agree with them.
“I don’t believe you. I’m sorry you guys are so hurt and damaged, but it will be different with my mom and me. My mother is the love of his life.”
“Then we have nothing left to talk about.” Nick Brody jr. says without anger.
End of part 2/4
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