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Fanfic: Can't take my eyes off of you 
19th-Apr-2011 12:17 am
Can’t take my eyes off of you

By Marea67
Rate: G
Disclaimer: Not mine. Kevin/Scotty would be kissing if they were.
Summary: taking place during 2.08 "Something New"  and after the infamous 'lobster dinner' 
Written for[info]love_bingo


I will post 4 short-stories that should be read in this order: Love at first sight, Forbidden love, "Can't take my eyes of off you" (this story) and "Wedding in reverse". The last part will be posted shortly.


Scotty makes himself smaller in the dark. They hadn’t even bothered to close the curtains. It was dark in the bedroom, when they made love earlier, so no one could have seen them anyway. But the moon has changed position and in the pale moonlight he can see Kevin’s body on the bed.

What have I done? … I should have known, where this night was headed, the moment you talked about lighting the candles… I knew we were slowly been getting closer to each other again, especially since you no longer even bother to check your messages to see if there's one from Jason, as if you’ve finally given up ever on getting them…

Scotty closes his eyes.
Stupid, stupid, stupid! You’re going to hate yourself in the morning, Kevin, like I hate myself right now. But … what could I have done? I love you… so much.” Scotty brushes away a tear.

He had dreaded going back to Kevin’s office. That moment that he had seen Kevin again, he had known that his feelings for Kevin had never changed. He had never been able to switch off his love for Kevin. And his own mixed emotions had mixed with Kevin’s obviously also mixed feelings.

I knew it that day in court. Just seeing you standing there, so self assured, so calm, so in control. I couldn’t take my eyes off of you. I just don’t understand how something that would make me immediately be turned off with another man, makes me so turned on when it’s you.

You have no idea how much I’ve been watching you, these last few weeks, as if trying to imprint every movement of your body in my memory. I’ve grown able to tell your real smile from your professional one. I can see how the muscles of your back tense up when the phone rings and how your shoulders sink, just a bit too much, when it’s not Jason. Again.

I can see by the look in your eyes, when you’re
with me and when you’re not and I have noticed that lately you listen to me more often than before, when, I’m sure, you mind would drift away to Jason… I wanted… I needed to believe that it could be possible... You and I….” Scotty can’t finish his thoughts, they hurt too much.

 Tonight, you were so sad, we got so drunk, but I knew… I knew the moment I turned my head that you’d be there. I swore, weeks ago, I would not let you kiss me, but I don’t know which of us took the first step. I’m not entirely sure it was you, but it will be easy to put the blame on you.

You’re lonely. You got me drunk. Took advantage. I got nowhere to go…. And I know, you’ll take the blame. You’ll search for the weaknesses and flaws in yourself first. But I know that’s not true. I wasn’t too drunk. I knew what I was doing, who I was doing it with, but I couldn’t have stopped it. I wanted you too much. And I’m not going to let you take all the blame.

It does however mean, that I’ll have to leave. I can’t stay after all this. I can no longer go back to standing by, to not touching you, to be ‘just a friend’, because you’re not ‘just a friend’ to me. You’re more than that. I can’t imagine my life without you. At the same time I can’t imagine your life with
me in it….”

Scotty continues to look at Kevin’s sleeping form, trying to memorize every line, every shape, until he can no longer keep his eyes open. He lifts up the covers and slips underneath. His arm closes around Kevin’s waist and he feels Kevin press even closer. He sighs softly and closes his eyes.

18th-Apr-2011 10:50 pm (UTC)
WOW! That's really touching! Poor Scotty, I'm sure he felt that way during this scene.
19th-Apr-2011 07:54 am (UTC)
It must have been so tough for Scotty, because I do believe that he was still in love with Kevin (that near-kiss at the restaurant...)
19th-Apr-2011 03:10 am (UTC)
Beautiful, loved the internal monologue. Great job!
19th-Apr-2011 07:55 am (UTC)
Thanks. I can only hope that did Scotty some justice. :)
19th-Apr-2011 09:13 am (UTC)
Sniffle - that was perfect; one of the best stories to date - I really think that Scotty (and Kevin) never stopped loving each other but had to move on or they would continue to hurt each other; until they were ready :)
19th-Apr-2011 11:00 am (UTC)
I definately think they needed the breaks in their relationship to appreciate finding each other even more. :)
19th-Apr-2011 09:19 pm (UTC)
And his own mixed emotions had mixed with Kevin’s obviously also mixed feelings
awwww..... he just didn't know better at that moment, Kevin's probably more confused than him. :P

You’ll search for the weaknesses and flaws in yourself first.
Yeah, that's Kevin. No doubt. I still have to say this again, I just really love the bit where Scotty pulled Kevin closer when they're kissing!!

awwwwwwww...this is so sweet and love all the struggle in Scotty's head. All his love, admiration, temptation, eagerness for Kevin 's all there! Sometimes I thought I wish I were Scotty! LOL!

Hey, you don't know how fast I tried to read/comment on the first two chapters! Cuz I love that song very much!! When I saw it on the title, I was so eager to get to this part, because somehow I know I'll love this the best! I actually used that song's lyrics for my very first Matthew wallpaper, but I kept that to myself at last and the one I posted, I changed the lyrics to 'Tell Him'...heh....
21st-Apr-2011 06:56 pm (UTC)
*** I just really love the bit where Scotty pulled Kevin closer when they're kissing!! ***

Wasn't it HOTTTTTTT!!!! I still wonder why Kevin had such a 'strategically placed' pillow. ;) How often did Matthew/Luke have to do it again? ;)

21st-Apr-2011 07:00 pm (UTC)
Btw, how cute was it, later on, when Scotty said: "I think we've already established I have no problems with your body."?
Jeez, I wish he would occassionally say sweet things like that to his husband again. (Swoon! now I HAVE to watch that scene again. Oh! The horror! NOT!) :D
22nd-Apr-2011 01:16 pm (UTC)
how cute was it, later on, when Scotty said: "I think we've already established I have no problems with your body."?
I know!! I was having all kinds of dirty thoughts in my head after I heard him say that *cough*
25th-Apr-2011 06:57 pm (UTC)
Me too. I could SO imagine the ways in which he could have 'established' that. I need those dirty thoughts back! :)
21st-Apr-2011 12:27 am (UTC)
Poor Scotty :( As if it wasnt enough torture for him to have to set aside his feelings because he needed a place to live. A place to live with his ex that he still loved. Of course no one needs a history lesson. I for one am glad that they both gave in. Jason's an ok guy but he just wasnt Scotty.
21st-Apr-2011 06:57 pm (UTC)
I agree. He wasn't Scotty and that kiss still makes me go YESSSSS!!!! everytime I see it. :)
21st-Apr-2011 11:32 am (UTC)
This one is soooooo beautiful!!

21st-Apr-2011 06:58 pm (UTC)
Ah! Trips down memory-lane... ;)
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