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11th-Nov-2010 11:24 am
I've received a few (concerned) PMs etc. about "Written in rock " and also  "Forgiven, not forgotten"

Just to make something clear, I'm still a fan a fan of Kevin/Scotty and as long as Matthew Rhys and Luke Macfarlane continue to be the great actors they are, then I will continue to be so.

But, yes, the current storyline has created quite some problems for me. I don't want to re-start the entire debate, about who's 'right/wrong' or what coulda, shoulda, woulda been and what 'if only...'s" there still could be, because it's pointless. It happened the way it happened, I can't change the story, I can't change the outcome, I can't change their future and the writers sure as hell aren't interested in MY opinion. (Or that of any of you) So going back and forth over this is just a pointless conversation,

However I still struggle with it all, especially when it comes to my writing my fan-fic. I view it a certain way and it has an effect on my writing.

For me, personally, it hasn't made Scotty 'less boring'. If that was purpose of this storyline, the writers utterly failed, as far as it comes to MY view. To me, Scotty was never 'boring', he just wasn't 'used' as a character. But this storyline has made me lose a large chunk of respect for Scotty, because I DO take cheating FAR more serious than the writers do. I have issues with writing him as 'loveable' at the moment.

This is not so much Scotty's fault or Luke's, but just MY own view on the topic of cheating. And this goes for ALL characters. It was that way for Nora, for Sarah, for both Tommy and Julia, and also for Robert and, as much as I dislike Luc, I don't want to see it happen to him either.... No one 'deserves' to get cheated on because, if an open-marriage is not your thing and you're not casual about this topic, then getting cheated on hurts like bloody hell! 

And what bugs me is that all this was supposed to make Scotty more interesting, when all it does ultimately, is that Kevin wil be the one who has to make the changes in his personality, he has to change who he IS (needy, loveable, neurotic, strong, high-maintance, caring, loyal, always loyal).

This will be an important struggle for Kevin, not Scotty, who cannot change anything about Kevin's character (because only Kevin can do that), but also Scotty has no changes to make of his own. There's no growing 'together', only Scotty standing by while Kevin is supposed to do the 'growing'.

All Scotty has to do, (because he made NO other mistakes), is not cheat again and that  shouldn't be the hardest thing to do, considering how upset he was about having done it in the first place.

Scotty is still the same Scotty he was before, interesting if only given half a chance, but I've lost a certain feeling about him. And I still think that Kevin is the most flawed between them, who now has to do the near impossible to change himself.

And (pout!) I don't WANT Kevin to change. I love him with all his flaws and mistakes and how I sometimes want to hit him over the head because he's an idiot and how I sometimes want to hug him, because he's so sweet.

I HATE this storyline! And I feel stuck, because, unlike the writers,  I can't move on as if 'nothing happened' and it wasn't  a big deal, because to me cheating IS a big deal.

I've seen a sneak-peek and the boys seem to be in a better place, but I haven't followed them there yet

Give me time. ;)

11th-Nov-2010 10:45 am (UTC)
I don't like this SL either and I'm with you in a lot of thing here.

I don't think Scotty is boring.
I can't see where the writers go with this. You cheat and I have to change. So is it all Kevin's work?

But I have a few things to say:

I liked your fics and I think they are great. About the ending I just this was too rush. I would love a few more sentences between them. Just that :) The writing was lovely.
I do take cheating far but I think that one thing is a mistake and another an "affair" eith a lover and everything. I don't want to argue, just to say that I can move on, but I need time too ;)

Keep writing because is the only way we can move on!!
11th-Nov-2010 08:11 pm (UTC)
I'm sure, I'll find a way to do it, just don't know HOW yet. I can't find the angle I'm looking for. :)
11th-Nov-2010 05:19 pm (UTC)
wow, even though i have only written 2 fics of these too, i have alot of ideas and many of them are going down the sink with this sl it really bothers me and as you say, scotty is still the same person and all over again, kevin has to do the changes.... not good.

but after all, this is fanfics world, we can do whatever we want. i will write about the cheating and then i think i will go to some pre-season 5 stories as this story line is really bothering me.
11th-Nov-2010 07:12 pm (UTC)
Yes, we can! :) You're right. That's the fun part of it.

I'm sure I'll snap out of it, but I just don't know how yet.

I have an idea or two, but they feel like stories I already wrote and I don't like copying myself.. Sigh... We'll see. :)
11th-Nov-2010 07:25 pm (UTC)
exactly, it is so funny how some fics have actually filled the blanks when it comes to some story lines. and sometimes i am like "did this actually happened or did read it?" :p

btw i just posted a sneak peek of the chating story.
11th-Nov-2010 06:16 pm (UTC)
I don't always 'share a glass with you' but I appreciate all of your stories and what you do.

I hate this storyline too. And I hate how the writers are managing all of this (the last sneak-peek is bothering me so much).

I think that people who read your fics simply want to run away from all this stuff.
It's like all the FF world is a safe world where everything is perfect and must be perfect. But why?
We can't just ignore this SL. It's not right. We love the show even if the writers make such mistakes. Just my impression.

You have to do what you feel to do. If you need it to move on, then it's ok.
For what it counts I'll always follow you and your stories :)

11th-Nov-2010 07:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you for your vote of confidence, it means a lot to me. :)

I didn't think it would affect me the way it did. I cannot ignore this storyline, just can't. It's too big a treshold to step over.

The sneak-peek is funny, Matthew and Luke are great, based on the clip alone I can love Kevin/Scotty, but in the 'grand scheme' it just feels off.

Oh, we'll see. I shouldn't worry about it too much, it will come to me how I can solve this for myself. :)
12th-Nov-2010 04:02 am (UTC)
I've been going back and fwd from your LJ for at least a year now, but just now I've got to cmnt :) (sorry i'm quite lazy)
I've always loved your stories and the way you reflect on the characters, whether you're drawing new lines of conflict or just carrying on with the original story

You've been giving me "the development" that the paid writers couldn't give me, and with this new crap ... oh sorry... SL... I need to fill the gaps or at least read ppl like you working this out, and for that thank you!
with the help of the last 2 stories I've been 'more at peace' about everything
I still think it's way too OCC for Scotty to cheat whithout throwing a tantrum first and a bit OCC for Walkers to push Kevin into acepting everything and forget it all at once, but after I read your stories i got the felling of 'okay, if it's is like this I can go with the flow'

I haven't followed them... I don't have a fast speed recovery, so I'll keep walking with you until we both get to the 'better place' (and then hopefully forget about this madness)

my whole point is take all the time you need! but please don't stop writing because I need someone who's actually making an effort of being coherent

(sorry long post I should have cmnted before, I hope I made sense tho)
12th-Nov-2010 10:14 pm (UTC)
Hi, bitterlatte,

Thank you and you make a lot of sense. :)

I still think it's way too OCC for Scotty to cheat whithout throwing a tantrum first

I agree. I sure had expected Scotty to give Kevin a huge piece of his mind... but cheating? ... It still feels off, regardless of how I try to make it work. And also that he kept it a secret for 10 months before he told Kevin...

But it's done, it's done. I have to live with it. We all do. (Sad sigh)

Thank for taking the time to post your comment. I really appreciate that. :)

12th-Nov-2010 10:52 pm (UTC)
*waves* yeah, sorry another lurker. But I have to comment to this just to say Thank you! I've been feeling really awful and down about this whole thing since it first happened and last week's episode was the worst ever but I couldn't put my finger on exactly what it was and you've articulated it beautifully here.
12th-Nov-2010 11:24 pm (UTC)
Hey! *waves back* It's been a while since I saw a comment from you. :D And you're welcome!
14th-Nov-2010 03:07 pm (UTC)
I love that your stories tend to fill in the blanks of what they wont show us. Especially this crappy SL. I hate that they did it to Kevin and Scotty. I completely understand where you are at on this. I cant just sweep it under the rug either. Sure I love to see them happy and "lovey dovey" but part of what that meant/means was stolen from us with this stupid storyline. Im finding it hard to enjoy that sneak peak because its just like they flipped a switch and its so far from being that easy. I agree that Scotty was not boring but underused. The fact that Kevin's got to change to make things right well that I'm really not comfortable with. I love him the way he is. He wears his heart on his sleeve and sometimes it gets him in trouble but he's always looking out for his family and I love that about him. I still love Scotty as well, its just that I've got to look at him in a new light. He made a mistake. Sure it was only one time but it only takes one time to break someones [Kevin's] heart. I just have to come to terms with what the writers did to Scotty.

I admire your being able to "write it out." My creativity has just seemingly stopped as I process what's going on. I'm finding it hard to just skip this over but even harder to write. So I guess I could say I am stuck. Anyway enough about me.

I was thinking a bit ago about how they (the writers) drop things that end up happening down the road. I.E. Tommy not wanting to touch Justin's kidney and then down the road Elizabeth needed a kidney transplant, and then there's [spoilerish] Paige telling Kevin that its not like they are going to get a 12 year old right off the bat and thats what the spoilers are pointing to[/spoilerish] and of course the whole horrible dont know where this ones been tramping around...and we know where they went with that. I find myself reading too much into the show now just waiting for the next ball to drop.

Soooo anyway, sorry for the rant I guess you could call it that. But I am so glad that you do write it out. Putting out there for people like myself to process it.
16th-Nov-2010 11:58 am (UTC)
Well, it's not easy to write, I want it to hurt a bit more, but also to be over. Confusing!
16th-Nov-2010 01:45 pm (UTC)
I hear you and this does effect every one in very different ways. Your stories are always so fantastic because they are always written with honesty and integrity and if writing in this way is your way to work through this I say go for it and keep writing those wonderfully, intriguing and exciting fics.
They way I see it there are two choices.....live with all the mistakes that have been made and try to work with it the best way we can, Choice Two....Screw canon and forget it ever happened.......or perhaps a combination of the two? - either way at the moment I have writers block! *sigh and lol.
At the end of the day just do what you do best, let both of the characters grow and keep writing from the heart.
16th-Nov-2010 03:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks! I hope you get 'unblocked' soon. I miss the times when there was enough fanfic around. Sigh.
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