A fine romance... 10/11
About: Kevin/Scotty and a few others
Rate: This part: G (Sorry!)
Disclaimer: I don't own Brothers & Sisters, they belong to ABC. Written with love, not for money.
Summary: In the wake of Kevin's operation, Kevin doesn't only have strange dreams of Elizabeth, but also one of Scotty..... (semi-AU?)
Extra Note: And okay, just to prove that the writers of B&S aren't the only ones who can write incredibly unrealistic romantical nonsense with a 100% predictability-rate.
CHAPTER 10: WILL BOY + BOY GET TO EACH OTHER? THIS IS THE (NOT SO) NERVOUSLY BITING ON FINGERNAILS-PART
“Dad! What are you doing here? Is mom alright?”
“I was in the neighborhood and thought I’d visit my son…” William answers.
“Rrrright…. I’ve been working a lot these last few days. Remind me when the news came out that pigs fly?”
“Last week.” William replies dryly and Kevin is even more astounded. William is making a joke. With him. That’s frightening.
“Okay…. Who are you and what have you done with my father?…. Not that I mind this version.” William still smiles at Kevin and Kevin gets really nervous. He doesn’t know William like this.
“Can we talk? Privately? As in: not here in the hall?” William asks, but Kevin feels reluctant to take his father up to his apartment. It’s his private domain and nobody from his family has ever been there. It is also his safety zone and he’s not sure that he can a fight with his father there.
“I cannot see, what we have left to talk about. Everything has been said. You got what you wanted. I’ve severed all the ties with the family. You can now happily move on with your lives and pretend I don’t exist and that your safe little world is protected against ‘bad influences’ like me.
Why are you even here? I’ve stuck to my end of the deal. Isn’t it enough that I no longer go to LA? No longer call anyone, not even mom? Aren’t you satisfied with the fact that I’m erased out of the lives my siblings and cousins? What more do you want from me? That I put a gun to my head and pull the trigger, so that you’ve eradicated me forever?
Because if that is what you’re waiting for, you’d better not be holding your breath while doing it. I’ve done my part. I’m out of your lives. Now do your part. Get out of mine.” Kevin wishes that he’s mentally stronger right now, but he feels tired and the shock of suddenly seeing his father gets to him.
He cannot help that his insecurity and pain surfaces with his anger or that William can see it so well on his son’s expressive face. William takes a deep breath.
“I didn’t come here to fight with you. I realize that things haven’t always gone right between us. When you left Ojai in such an angry state, I thought it would pass, but your mother is worried about you…”
“Oh. Mom sent you.” Kevin assumes.
“… And. So. Am. I.” William continues, emphasizing every word.
Kevin laughs cynically and shakes his head. His entire body displays his disbelief for his father’s words.
“I can understand that you don’t believe me, but, can we please talk? Just you and me?” Kevin listens to William and starts to doubt, because he doesn’t have the idea that William is lying or mocking him.
“I’m too tired for this shit.” He replies dejectedly and, with a movement of his keys, he signals his father to follow him. William follows him to his apartment, where he watches Kevin throw down his keys in an ashtray and place his briefcase in the space between the wall and his desk, that has exactly the depth of the briefcase.
William looks around. Though the room is manly, comfortable, systematic and organized, it also lacks the feeling of being lived in. He follows Kevin to the kitchen. Equally methodic, but also without much life. Without asking anything Kevin hands William a drink, but doesn’t take one for himself, mumbling something about having to work.
He motions Williams to sit down at the kitchen-table, which looks remarkably similar to the one Nora has. Kevin sits down opposite of him. He's waiting, defiant, bracing himself for what is to come, ready to counter-argue. William puts down his glass.
“I am sorry.” William then says loud and clear.
Kevin blinks a few times, whatever he had expected to hear, and he had been ready for quite some reproaches, he could never have prepared himself for these three little words.
“Ah-w-w-what?” he stammers.
“I am sorry.” William repeats, as calm, clear and articulate as the first time.
“For what?” Kevin asks slowly, still expecting some insult, some lousy remark, some accusation to come from William’s lips at any moment. William sighs. ‘
“For everything. I didn’t handle things too well back then, when you came out.”
“You wouldn’t even look at me. You didn’t want anyone at work to know.”
“I was struggling to find some…”
“And I wasn’t? I was a kid. I just needed to know that you loved me the same way you love Kitty, Sarah, Justin or Tommy, but you were too busy being ashamed.”
“And I have to live with how I reacted, now you can get past this and accept my apology.”
“I’m not sure I can.” Kevin dismisses his father’s words. The tension between them has never been more present. William nods, but doesn’t back down.
“I’m sure you can.” He then says. “You have proven, time and time again, that you are resilient. You always gave more than you got and …”
“… And that is exactly why I stopped! Yes, I’m resilient, I’m strong, but I don’t see any reason to put myself willingly and knowingly in a position where I get humiliated and hurt, and I’m tired of being the giving one, when all the others do is take from me what they can.
But just because you guys are family, that doesn’t mean, that you can act like assholes to me and that I have to accept it with a dumb smile on my face.” Kevin leans closer to his father. “You know that it’s stupid to be camping on an active volcano or go fishing during a tsunami-warning.
And for that exact reason, I’m staying away from all of you now. I don’t want to get hurt anymore and the best way to stop that, is to cut away the infected part and, I will leave up to you to chose which part you consider to be infected. Me or the family. It all depends of point of view anyway….”
William watches Kevin closely, feeling like he hasn’t seen his son for too long.
“What about Scotty?” He suddenly asks and the question knocks the wind out of Kevin for a few seconds. William’s interest is too unexpected.
“You know, the boyfriend you took to Ojai, the man you were in love with.” Kevin feels too disorientated. William had never before seemed able to accept that Kevin could fall in love with someone, let alone with another ‘man’ and yet, the words come out of his mouth like it’s the most normal question to ask.
“Truth is, he was a gigolo, I did pay him for his services. "Kevin rattles. "I met him the Wednesday-night before we went to Ojai and he stayed with me, to get to know me better. It was all fake. He wasn’t in love with me, but… I certainly fell for him… He flew back Sunday-night, but I couldn’t fly with him….. I’ve been unable to forget him ever since.
So, dad, you got your Christmas-gift early this year. I 've just given you and the others another reason to laugh at me.” William frowns at Kevin’s words.
“Kevin. I’m not laughing….. In fact, there’s something you need to know…” but before William can finish his sentence, Kevin’s phone rings. Kevin quickly checks the display.
“Sorry, I’ve been waiting for this call. It’ll be just a minute… Hi, this is Kevin… Wait just a second, Tess.” Kevin puts the phone on speaker-phone, runs over to his briefcase and quickly takes a file out of it. “I’m back. Go ahead. What’s the result of the meeting?”
“They offer twenty million. Five more than we asked for.”
“Good. Excellent. Thanks, Tess. Have a good night. See you tomorrow.”
“Kevin? Are you still there?”
“I just found a call-back note in Mr Benedict’s tray.”
“That’s stupid. Mr Benedict is on a 3-week trip through Asia.” Kevin replies and Tessa sighs.
“It’s that Lena girl again. It is actually a call back note for you. She put it in the wrong tray.”
“I swear, I’m going to fire her one day. I don’t care who she sleeps with.”
“It’s a note to call back a ... Scotty Wandell. The number is…”
“Wait! Did you say Scotty Wandell?”
“Yes, and get this. It’s three days old, so if it’s important, you better call back fast.”
She gives him the number and Kevin automatically writes it down, while a hundred thoughts tumble through his mind. When she breaks the connection, Kevin stares at his phone, his thumb sliding over the digits, but afraid to press Scotty’s number.
“He called me.” Kevin says astounded.
“Three days ago.” William’s voice reminds him. “You better call him back. Now.”
“Why did he call my office, when he has my personal number….” Kevin turns to his other phone, the landline, and it’s only now that he notices, that the red light of his answering-machine is blinking.
“Somebody left me a message. No one ever really uses that number anymore, they all call on my cell.” Kevin presses the ‘play’ button and he hears Scotty’s voice:
“Hi, Kevin, I’m sorry that I called you at the office. I wasn’t sure how you’d feel about being called at home. Everything is so weird between us and I thought you might prefer it to be more ‘professional’. Like I said, I’m sorry I called you. You didn’t call me back, I can only assume that you don’t want to talk to me. It’s okay. I understand. I just want you to know that I’m leaving San Francisco.
I’m going back to my parents. I’ll be on a flight to Phoenix tonight. So, you have nothing to worry about. No ‘Fatal Attraction’ re-run. Don’t worry. You’ll never hear from me again. I will delete your number after this. I just want you to know…” Silence. “…. Whatever your family tells you…. You’re an amazing man.”
There’s a little sob and then the beep that the message has ended. Kevin stares at his phone in total shock and for a moment William fears that Kevin will start to hyper-ventilate, but he gets his grip back. Without a second thought he dials the number Tessa gave him… It’s disconnected. He cannot reach Scotty.
“I have to go, dad. I gotta stop him from leaving.”
“I’m coming with you.”
“No…. I really….”
“This is not open for debate. You’re in no condition to drive. You’ll kill someone on the way. Don’t want that to happen, now do you?”
William really pushes where he can and Kevin is sure that William broke several speeding-laws, but he doesn’t care, because the entrance to the airport appears before him.
“Quick! Go in! Find him!” William orders and he doesn’t have to say it twice, because Kevin is already gone.
He runs through the hall, realizing he’s in a poor physical condition. He asks for the flight and gets pointed in the right direction by some disinterested 18-year old. Out of breath he arrives at the right desk.
“The flight to Phoenix… I need to be on that flight.” He coughs out, searching for his wallet.
“I’m sorry, sir.”
“Don’t tell me that there aren’t any places available anymore….”
“There were plenty of places, sir, but the plane left 10 minutes ago.” She smiles sympathetically as Kevin’s world just stops turning.
“Where there any last minute cancellations?” He asks worried. She shakes her head.
“Maybe you could take the next flight and try to find her.... I’m sorry, if someone is this distraught over a plane leaving, it’s usually because there’s someone very important on board. A loved one.”
“Thanks, but it’s pointless. I don’t know where he could possibly go after arriving in Phoenix.” Her lips for a little ‘o’ and she apologizes again. Kevin turns around, returning to the entrance. Halfway, he sees William walk up to him.
“Did you….?” William starts, Kevin shakes his head.
“His flight just left. I was too late. I lost him. I don’t know where he went from there on. I know nothing about him. I fell in love with a fantasy, that I know nothing about…” Kevin tries to swallow away his tears, but it’s pointless, they come like an unstoppable force.
And if all this wasn’t enough, this evening gives Kevin another shock. William puts his arms around him and pulls him close to offer comfort. Kevin freezes for a second, but then gives in…
It seems to be an eternity until Kevin softly pushes William away.
“Come on. Let’s sit down.” William says. They find a place to sit quietly. “I’ll call Robert and ask him if this Travis, who works for him, could dig up some more on Scotty. I’m sure that if anyone can, he can.”
“And why would Robert do that for me?” Kevin asks.
“He owes you that.” William answers and Kevin laughs sarcastically, but William ignores it. “We’ll find him.”
“And what makes you suddenly so supportive?”
“Scotty did, actually. He said a few things that got me thinking…”
“Wow. He must have been a master with words then.”
“It wasn’t what he said, it’s how he said it. He stood in our kitchen and told me, that he was in love with you and I believed every word he said. You know, I work on gut-feeling. If I don’t like someone, I will never like him.
But Scotty.. he was sincere, he believed one hundred percent in every word he said. Just like you did when you said that you’d been happy with every day that the two of you were together…. It may have been only two, three days, but you meant every word you said. He made you feel special and you were in love.”
“I fell in love with a fantasy. He warned me not to. And I tried not to fall in love, but he was so good, so genuine, so sincere, I just wanted to believe the lies he was telling.”
“I still don’t believe that he was faking his feelings, but that they were real.”
“Yeah, that’s the other side in you. If you do like someone, you’re loyal till the end…” Kevin sighs.
“Not always.” William replies. “I always liked you, yet, I realize that I haven’t been very loyal to you.” Kevin doesn’t say anything to contradict his father. “Kevin, son, I don’t pretend to understand what you feel or how you can feel it. The mere idea of being with another man, being touched by him, just….” William makes an ugly face.
“I get it.” Kevin nods, a little irritated.
“But this is not about me, but about you. You fall in love with other men. I don’t know why, but I know you do… And it took me a long time to accept that... I’m still in the process of accepting… Sometimes it’s easy, sometimes it’s not…
It should, however, not stop you from living your life. I want you to be happy, just like I want happiness for Sarah, Kitty, Tommy or Justin. You are my son and… I love you.” Like a character in a cartoon, Kevin’s chin just drops. He’s completely stunned by William’s words. The second set of three words he never expected to hear from this father again.
He whispers something that sounds like ‘thanks’, but his throat’s too dry. William squeezes his shoulder.
“Come on. I’ll take you back to your apartment and then I’m going to my hotel and I will call Robert….”
“Tell Robert that if he wants to help me find Scotty, I’ll… I’ll tell Jason and ask Jason to get in touch with Robert. If anyone can persuade Jason, I can.”
“Sounds fair enough.” William nods. “Come on. Nothing we can do here.” He says and together they return to William’s car.
END OF PART 10