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Extra: This an AU (Alternative Universe) story, so remember : The more things change, the more they stay the same. Here are part 01, part 02, part 03, part 04, part 05, part 06, part 07, part 08, part 09, part 10, part 11, part 12, part 13, part 14, part 15, part 16, part 17, part 18, part 19, part 20, part 21, part 22, part 23, part 24, part 25, part 26, part 27, part 28, part 29, part 30, part 31, part 32, part 33, part 34, part 35, part 36, part 37, part 38, part 39, part 40, part 41, part 42, part 43, part 44, part 45, part 46, part 47, part 48, part 49, part 50, part 51, part 52, part 53, part 54, part 55, part 56, part 57, part 58, part 59, part 60, part 61, part 62, part 63, part 64, part 65, part 66, part 67, part 68. part 69, part 70, part 71, part 72, part 73, part 74 and part 75
HALFWAY APRIL 2008 – SATURDAY LATE AFTERNOON
Txt message 6.15 am: Jase, call me! We need to talk. R.
Voice message 8.12 am: “Jason, please, let me know where you are. I’m at your church, they are worried about you. You haven’t left a message for anyone. You haven’t been home. We need to... talk?
Txt message 9.11 am: Let me know where u r. R.
Txt message 2.27 pm: Am worried. Call me. R.
Txt message 4.44 pm: Understand u r angry. Silence not a solution. R.
“Kitty! I’m off to Ojai and be with Emily!” Nora yells. From Kitty’s room she hears the immediate reply.
“Make sure the front-door is locked! Have fun!” Nora takes her keys and her overnight bag. She plans to stay until Monday, because she wants to talk to Holly too and Holly is away for the weekend.
About five minutes later, Kitty quickly runs down the stairs to open the door, assuming it’s one of her siblings, who expected the door to be open, because she’s home.
“Just a second!” she yells and she yanks the door open, expecting Kevin or Tommy, instead she’s face to face with Robert McCallister.
“Senator.” She says out of breath.
“Miss Walker. Can I come in?” he asks.
“I don’t want to fight.” Kitty starts. “You may have spoken with your brother, but I’ve been lectured by mine yesterday. I will not talk about Jason any further…”
“That is nice, but I still want to talk to you. I’m not angry or anything. Just talk. Promise.” After a little hesitation, Kitty opens the door further. Robert follows her to the kitchen, where she offers him coffee and he gratefully accepts. He hasn’t slept much, he’s worried sick about Jason and he’s very tired.
“It’s a lovely kitchen.” He compliments.
“This is my mom’s house…. She recently became a widow. My father past away last week. The funeral was last Wednesday.” For a moment Kitty asks herself why she’s telling Robert about this and then she remembers: “That is where I saw Jason….”
“Sorry to hear that… about your dad… Was that your mother I saw leaving with a weekend-bag?...” and when he sees her frown, he quickly explains. “I’m not stalking, it just took me about 10 minutes to gather my courage and ring at your front-door. I saw her leave.”
Alright, so he has a pleasant smile, Kitty suddenly notices. It’s a smile people obviously don’t get to see often, because it’s a nervous smile, one that says ‘I’m totally out of my comfort zone’.
“Listen, if Jason really wants me to apologize for what I said, I will.” She gives in.
“No. No, that won’t be necessary, thank you. Jason told me the truth…. I guess, it’s me who owes you an apology.”
“You didn’t know?”
“Never even thought about it.” Robert admits.
“I guess he had some pretty good reasons to keep it hidden. I can only imagine how afraid he must have been.”
“So, how do you cope with it?” Robert asks.
“Cope with what?” Kitty asks in return.
“Having a gay brother.”
“I’m not the one who has to ‘cope’ with anything.” Kitty replies, not understanding.
“You know what I mean. This opinion that people will have of you and your family.” Robert says quietly. Kitty shakes her head and laughs sarcastically.
“I will let you in a on little secret, Robert McCallister, that is going to shock your little world, but the universe doesn’t revolve around you. Jason being gay will be forgotten by the media in a day or two. You kicked your brother out, so you’re a ‘good Republican’. Your problem is solved. It’s was just a little glitch in your life.
Do you know for who this will not be over? For Jason. Do you know who will have to face prejudice for being who he is? Jason. Do you know who will be kicked out of his church? Jason. And do you know what the saddest part is? When all this happens, he’s going to be alone.
Oh, yes, Chad will be there and I’m sure Kevin, Scotty and Jordan will also provide a shoulder to cry on. And, hell, when push comes to shove, even my mother, my sister, brothers and I will be there for him. But that’s not the same. It is not the same as having the support from your own family.”
Kitty takes a deep breath and softly continues:
“When my brother came out, I was surprised, shocked, I didn’t get it. I still don’t always get it, but I never stopped loving my brother. I love him unconditionally. And anyone who wants to hurt him, will have to go through me, because I’m not going to let it happen.
We were a close-knit family, but when Kevin came out, it nearly destroyed us. Our quiet family-home became a battle-zone and the camps were very clear. For the first time in my life my parents were not a united front, they fought each other ferociously. And I think that ultimately, not immediately, we all sided with our mom and Kevin.
I worshipped the ground my father walked on, but when I saw the pain he inflicted on Kevin, I couldn’t deal with it. My father was wrong and it was so hard to have to admit to that. It was one of the fundamental reasons for me to leave my family home and go to New York…
But if this was hard for me, when this isn’t even about me, can you imagine, even just a little bit, the enormous pain this put on Kevin? And trust me: My father didn’t miss one opportunity to point out to Kevin that all the havoc in our family was created by Kevin and Kevin alone.
And what hurts me the most is knowing that all I went though, all the tears I cried, all these feelings of being powerless, isn’t even 1% of what Kevin went through. Kevin is the one who lost several of his friends, who became the target of pranks in school, who got beaten up for being gay. He encountered the prejudice and all this got added to the feeling of guilt of wrecking our family, that my father so cleverly put upon him.
So trust me, Jason being gay has no impact on you, because the one stuck in the hurricane is going to be Jason and all you will get is a breeze. So the question how you are going to cope is irrelevant. I would be more worried about how Jason is going to cope with everything that is coming his way.”
Robert stares at Kitty as if he never saw her before, then he bows his head.
“You’re right. This is not about me, but about my brother… Hey? Did you just say that I kicked my brother out of my house?”
“How do you know that?”
“Kevin, my brother, told me.”
“How does he know that?”
“Chad told him.”
“And this… Chad? … spoke to Jason?”
“Yes. I think so, Jason is staying at Chad’s.”
“What?! I’ve looking all over for him.”
“Had it not occurred to you, that he might go to his boyfriend?”
“I guess, I wasn’t ready for that… To think about that option would require me to accept the fact that my brother is gay… And …” He shakes his head. “It still feels unreal.”
“If you truly care about your brother, you’ll have to get used to it.”
“I need to talk to Jason. Can you get in touch with ... Chad?”
“Chad will not want to see Jason get hurt again.”
“I don’t want to hurt Jason. Last night… I was angry. Angry over your accusations. You see, I wanted to go into politics. That was my decision. Jason hates being the focus of attention, I know that too. And I love my brother.
Last night I really believed you were lying, I thought you wanted to attack me through Jason and that was unacceptable for me. So, here I was, believing I was dead right about being furious and then my brother tells me that, yes, he is gay, and, no, you were not lying. I felt knocked out.
I never saw it. I never suspected it. I never entertained the thought that he might be gay. Yes, he never had a girl-friend, but he was so busy with his religion that that made sense to me. I never looked for any other reason. Knowing my family, I can see why it must have been hard for him to talk about this.
And he shouldn’t have had tell everyone, but he should have told me! I would have protected him, I would have made sure that his secret, for as long as he needed it to be a secret, would remain a secret. So, you see, I’m not angry over the fact that he is gay. I’m angry that he kept this information from me.”
END OF PART 76