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MY KEVIN/SCOTTY AND OTHER B&S FANFIC
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Just a personal post. 
22nd-Nov-2011 09:31 am
kevin season 5
Well, that was weird, I just had to write it down.  

I'm usually a creature of the night. I love to write in the middle of the night, when it's quiet and I can make silly faces, whisper conversations or play out emotions that I want my characters to go through, without anyone walking on me, thinking I've just gone crazy. :) 

But last night, I was so tired, I was in bed by 10 pm. Seriously. Me! At first, I didn't think much about it, I've been feeling a bit sick lately. Nothing serious, just a feeling of a flu, that refuses to either break through or go away. So, I blamed it on that. But then....

I've been a fan of Matthew Rhys since end 2006/early 2007, but this is the first time I believe that I dreamed about him. And not just in a 'Oh, look Matthew Rhys' kinda way, but a really insistent dream that continued even after I'd woken up and fallen back to sleep. Can't say much about it, because it was rather personal for me (and apparently also for him - but THAT part must be my fantasy as I don't know much about his personal life, so I imagine I just concocted that to give reference to my own feelings) but it was highly enlightening for myself. 

I woke up this morning, feeling quite differently from what I felt these last few years. I don't know what happened last night, but I'm grateful that Matthew Rhys was used as a catalyst for it. It was sure more interesting for me to look at and listen to him, than at some other random person. And perhaps that was exactly the purpose of the dream(s), I do have this tendency of not listening to myself, so using Matthew as a 'replacement' may have been just what the doctor ordered... :)   

Anyway. I feel good, even this flu-bug seems to have decided to take a hike, because it's seems to be packing its bags.

Hope you all have a wonderful day and good dreams. :) 
Comments 
22nd-Nov-2011 11:26 am (UTC)
Hmmm ... Matthew has healing powers?!!! Glad you're starting to feel better ...
22nd-Nov-2011 02:42 pm (UTC)
I wouldn't go as far as to say that he has 'healing powers', but I sure feel better after dreaming about him, but maybe that is says more about ME than about HIM. :)

I have to say though, that there are FAR WORSE subjects to dream about than Matthew Rhys. ;)
22nd-Nov-2011 01:08 pm (UTC)
one time when i was feeling kinda down and i dreamed with an old woman (grandma-like) who gave me the best hug i had ever had.

sometimes we do need someone "from outside" to help us deal with whatever is going on in our lives. mattew is not only someone very close to your heart he also happens to be a very smart man :p

i am glad he helped you.
22nd-Nov-2011 02:48 pm (UTC)
Exactly. I'm pretty sure it wasn't Matthew himself channeling something to me, he doesn't know me and doesn't care about me, but what he and I discussed in my dream were sure things that were on my mind and I found hard to give a voice to. And the things he said were things I knew in my heart, but I just don't listen to my heart, my gut instinct or my inner voice.
22nd-Nov-2011 09:50 pm (UTC)
While it's cool and sane that you don't think he is sending you personal messages, I do think that he is a kind and caring person who has dealt with his share of rough times in life. Some of the things that he said or did are prob. things he would do if he did know you. I would imagine that he is a good friend based on seeing the way he was with his B&S castmates.

You don't have to downplay it. It was a special moment created by the type of person he is. Go Matthew/Go Marea!
23rd-Nov-2011 08:46 pm (UTC)
I agree. If he and I had been friends, we might have had the conversation we had in my dream, I guess that it is also the reason why it felt so good, because it was a natural conversation.
22nd-Nov-2011 10:47 pm (UTC)
That's really beautiful! Thanks for sharing and I hope everything gets better for you after this dream :)
23rd-Nov-2011 08:46 pm (UTC)
I'm still feeling good! :)
23rd-Nov-2011 11:50 am (UTC)
What a lovely moment to share with us - thank you.

I really do believe that dreams allow us to express ourselves and can change how we feel about things in the day time.
23rd-Nov-2011 08:47 pm (UTC)
I agree completely. I certainly feel better now. :)
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